I love watching A Baby Story. The stories of mothers before, during, and after labor. It's neatly tied up in a half-hour package. It never truly covers what leads up to the pregnancy, nor does it cover all that happens afterward, but I love it all the same. Of course, I'm a labor and delivery nurse ... and that is the part of parenthood that I witness every day at work. It is the extent of my knowledge of babies and mothers. That is going to change and soon.
The process of making our gayby has already begun. I met with my OB/GYN, did the blood work, got the hysterosalpingogram, found our donor and purchased sperm, and will begin my first course of Clomid this month. Every test thus far has come back normal. All that remains is to be inseminated and hope that it works. I am excited and I am nervous. My partner is excited. Apparently, she's over the nervous stage.
I couldn't have asked for a better partner to raise a child with and I am glad to be at a point in my life where I am finally ready for a family. At 34, I just shrug and say better late than never. I'm a late bloomer.
So this is my space to share my experiences, my thoughts, my joys and my fears. It is a space that may be named on my sexuality and my experience as a lesbian mother, but it will not be defined by these limitations as I believe my experiences will be far more universal.