- Support. I am so grateful for the friends and family that are supporting Momma B and I through this journey. We get asked so many questions with expectant smiles and my heart just swells with joy each time. There is nothing more flattering and heart-felt than a genuine interest and shared excitement. I feel as though no matter what happens, we'll get through it gracefully and with fewer bumps because we have so many people sharing their love and encouragement.
- Words. This post elicited a conversation last night with Momma B's parents that had otherwise been closed. I am so thankful to have had the chance to open that door and find out more of what my FIL meant by his words. Though we may not always understand each other or even agree with one another, I feel there was an opening of eyes last night on both sides. Words are powerful and often don't get the respect they deserve. I am just as much guilty of this as anyone. Momma B's father did not intend for his words to be hurtful, but to me they were. On the other hand, I never meant for my words to be malicious, but to him they were. All these words came to a head and we finally had the chance to actually hear each other last night. I value communication above most and that is all I could ask for, the openness to communicate and the willingness to at least try to understand. I offered that to him last night and am thankful to have received it in return. The impact of our words is nothing to be taken lightly. I relearned that lesson last night and do not think I will be able to forget it again.
- Advice. I have had the pleasure of visiting with friends that have had their first babies in the last couple of months. They are valuable women, both as friends and as a resource for me. They have offered reassurance to some of my worries, advice for things they have learned along the way, and much laughter over all the unexpected joys and trials that goes along with motherhood. Though I don't have a child yet, because we are in the active process of trying, I feel bonded with these women on a whole different level than before. From them I draw strength and confidence, and in return I can only offer my support and love and babysitting abilities. ;)
- Patience. Momma B is amazing. Honestly, she embodies everything that love is ... to me, at least. As I've struggled these last couple weeks, adjusting and crying and stressing, she's stayed true throughout and been that stable anchor that I've needed to keep from totally losing it. She's brought me back to a place of calm and held my hand and my heart with such tenderness. She doesn't understand my emotional fragility at times, but she doesn't have to ... she holds me all the same and is strong for me, even if she doesn't feel strong herself. I am forever thankful to have her in my life. If I never believed in soul mates, I certainly do now.
Monday, November 1, 2010
On this first day of November, I find myself reflecting on things I am thankful for ... of which there are a few today.