|One day the meds arrived.|
|Is that all?!|
|Milk, eggs, Gonal-F|
Only a few more days left of the BCPs and then ... AF? I hope it comes soon, but I realized if it does happen to show up 2 - 3 days after I stop the BCPs then my entire IVF schedule changes and I based my work schedule around that schedule. Hopefully I worked in enough cushion days and it won't be a problem. This IVF stuff is tricky business.
The in-laws came up from San Diego this last weekend. It was great to see them again, but it made for a very busy three days. I'm worn out and had to go right back to work last night. One more night tonight and I get another week off. This time without any agenda, any plans, or any visiting. Well, except for one night of drinking with my bestie to soothe the suckiness of her BFN, but that's a necessity for us both.
I will admit, looking at the schedule is overwhelming. Life has already gotten busier just preparing: lab work, counseling visit, acupuncture, injection class, other miscellaneous appointments at the fertility clinic, and many phone calls. I guess I've been handling it well, so that gives me hope that I'll be able to get through this next month without any problem.
Things have been going quite well, actually. I've already lost a little over 11 pounds. I've been more active and feel better in general. I'll be starting my Circle+Bloom meditation CD again soon. I also got a yoga DVD from my acupuncturist that focuses on increasing fertility. I feel prepared. I feel ready.
I'm trying not to get my hopes up too high. There's a 40 - 50% chance it won't work. It's hard though when everyone around you talks and acts as if it's a sure thing. I want to believe that too, but I'm a little scared that there will be more to go through - that it can't be that easy. I'm attempting to hope for the best and expect the worst sort of thing, but I find myself more expecting the worst. *sigh*