Later this morning is my first beta hCG test. The only disappointment I've had in this RE office is with this test as I am supposed to have one drawn today and another on Friday, but neither are ran until Friday and that will be when I get the results. They say it's because it's far more accurate if ran with the same blood assay, but most every where else doesn't worry about this so I don't know why they do. Seems kind of cruel to me. I think I'm going to beg, demand, throw a fit that they run the test today. I simply cannot wait anymore - I really am barely hanging by a thread.
Today I moped and stayed in bed most of the day since yet another HPT was BFN. What has me the most worried is that so many of the "symptoms" I felt over the weekend are gone. Yeah, my sense of smell is still heightened and my boobs are still bigger, but they no longer hurt and that is completely attributable to the progesterone shots and suppositories - it means little to me. I tried to hold onto the tentative hope I had last night, but I just couldn't.
Seems to me if today's beta test is negative, then we can cancel out Friday's, grieve and move on to the FET. I need to know because this limbo stage is killing me more than than the thought that this IVF cycle was a failure.