|Why oh why do they give citrus flavors |
on an empty stomach?! Gag! =/
The funny thing is, I'm no longer craving sweets like I used to, well, pretty much always. In fact, if I were to think of something I'd want as a midnight snack it would be a burger or cheese or a cheeseburger - pretty much anything full of protein. Those are my only cravings. The sweetest things I've actually been loving are fruits - mango, pineapple, pears, you name it. My absolute favorite, ice cream, has been passed up several times these last few weeks for fruit or cheese! So go figure.
Unfortunately, by failing this test, I felt as though I'd failed PB&J somehow too. I know I cannot control these things and I fall into several of the high-risk categories, but everything has been so healthy up to this point that I just hoped it would remain that way. Now it's all different. After I learned the results Friday morning, I was deflated and sad the rest of the day. I couldn't stop feeling that I was entirely responsible and I just put my babies at risk. It's taken a couple days for me to clear my head and realize this is just another small hurdle, but nothing that cannot be dealt with and not such a big deal that I should let it affect my mood and elicit so many fears. I meet with the dietitian on Wednesday and the Nurse Practitioner (NP) on Thursday, so between the two hopefully I'll get the required tools and information I need - something more focused for me and not just the general information I know from school and my field.
The unfavorable aspect of this is the conflicting information I'm getting. The NP we met with at our first OB appointment made some comments to us that lead us to believe she's not thinking of this pregnancy any different than that of a singleton - she actually told me it would be okay if I lost weight throughout this pregnancy! A big red flag to us both. We're hoping we don't find the same from my actual OB. Then there's the awesome dietitian that works both with the Moms of Multiples and Sweet Success programs, who basically told us that I can control blood sugars with meds if necessary, but it's too important to gain the necessary weight with multiples to try and overly control my food intake. I'm more apt to listen to her because she does work with both programs and definitely knows how different the needs can be with a twin pregnancy. It doesn't make things easier though because as a nurse, I know the importance of controlling blood sugars and I know what the risks can be to a fetus, but mainly when there's only one - not two. And I'll admit, my focus continues to change the further along we get in this pregnancy. PB&J's health is becoming top priority and I want to do everything to ensure they get the best start in life!
|O Tannenbaum, o Tannenbaum,|
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