Our babies are finally here! My amazement is just beyond suitable words. However, my heart has swollen with so much love in the last couple days it's near to bursting. Not just for these beautiful boys of ours, but for Momma B as well. Our family is complete and I couldn't be more happy or more proud.
The delivery went smoothly. The L&D nurses were simply lovely and though it was very strange to be on the other side of the bed, I had no doubts of the standard of care I was receiving. I cannot tell you how strange it is to feel so full of baby one second and the next to feel suddenly deflated. I also cannot tell you how hard it is to imagine how those babies actually fit inside of me. They are so small, but yet larger than life. Yes, I'm still riding on a baby high.
PB, our little tank, came into this world at a very solid 7 lbs 6 oz and 20" long. He also entered with a bit of a laugh as he chose to pee on the nurse as she was trying to stimulate him to breathe and cry. J, our precious one, came in a smaller package than we expected at 5 lbs 11 oz and 19" long.
At 35+1 weeks gestation, their APGARS weren't too bad at 7/7 and 7/8 respectively. They both had some respiratory problems, but again, nothing that we didn't anticipate - so they both went to the NICU on CPAP (aka bubblers). J did have two tiny pneumothoraxes and had to be intubated, but as soon as he received the surfactant to his lungs he was able to be taken off the ventilator and extubated within hours. He may be smaller, but he's so much stronger! He was also the first to be taken off the CPAP last night whereas PB took another day. Now our concern is getting them to eat well. J has been able to take in every milliliter given to him, but is very slow and gets tired easily from it. He also is still trying to get a full grasp on sucking. However, he's been able to tolerate increased amounts at each feeding and thus is also being weaned off the TPN and lipids. Since PB was just taken off his CPAP tonight and passed his four hour trial period, we haven't found out how well he's eating just yet. I anxiously await that news in the morning.
Today was extra special because I finally got to hold each one of them at separate times, skin-to-skin for the first time since they were born. Both of them snuggled right into my chest and life just settled into a slow, soothing rhythm each time. I got in a full hour with each of them. Those were the moments in which motherhood settled onto me and actually fit - I'm a mother. Wow. Unfortunately, recovery of my own body set a time limit on each magical moment. Just as amazing, it was also the first time I've heard either of them cry since they were pulled out of me. It was heart-wrenching, but also made me smile because I realized how laid back and quiet they've been despite everything going on with them and around them in the NICU. I may be biased, but these boys seem to be the strong, silent types thus far. And they're gorgeous.
I'm recovering pretty well, but will write another post in the future about me. Right now, I'm all about our boys. They are all ours ... and just so perfect. I couldn't feel more blessed than I do at this moment! Welcome to the world, my darlings.
|PB (r) & J (l) born 5/17/12 @ 8:07 & 8:08 pm PST.|
|Our gorgeous PB after getting the CPAP removed today!|
|Beautiful J right after getting CPAP removed last night.|
|Such an incredible time-stood-still moment with PB.|
|Another amazing, priceless moment with J.|